Tough Week, Tough Day.

This has overall been a tough week for me. I received news a few days ago that my Great Aunt, Barbra had passed away. She had been dealing with health issues for some time, but I guess the Lord decided to take her away this week. As far as her faith, I am not really sure if she believed in Christ…but I have been praying that she was a believer. I have also been praying that this would be a time for the many unsaved souls in my family to fall on their knees and cry out to God.

On top of dealing with her death, my Grandpa was admitted into the hospital. It was going back and forth with deciding what was going on with him, but it turns out that he has internal bleeding. It has gotten to the point where they have to do a blood transfusion, and administer a feeding tube. My grandpa is a wonderful man. I have a few memories with him before he became wheelchair bound. He is a very happy man, and he always looks at the positive side of life. No matter what issues hinder him, he always gets back up on the horse, and continues to go full speed ahead. He is a fighter.

Many years ago he had a major stroke, which resulted with having half of his brain removed. He lost complete control on one side of his body, and slowly ended becoming wheelchair bound. Although he faced so many medical issues, like I said..he always has a smile of his face. I was given the privilege to live with my Grandpa and Grandpa when I was living in Los Angeles. It was a wonderful time with my grandparents. I love them both so dearly, and they have always been big supporters of my future.

Seeing all of this happen this week breaks my heart. Not only does it make me want to hide out in my room here in Africa, but I want to board a plane and go back to Los Angeles. It really is so hard to know that your family thousands of miles away is falling apart. I just want to go be with the family so bad, I want to be with my mom and my aunt as they are dealing with sadness of everything that has happened. I wish that I was so badly home right now with all of my friends in Los Angeles. I miss being able to cry out with them when life has hit bumps.

I know that I have a new group of people here to lean on for support, but it does not feel like the people I know and love back at home. I have appreciated everyone over here in Africa, and they are all so wonderful..but this week my mind has been back in the States. Truth is, although I am doing well over here and I am happy, I want to be back home…

This week my heart has been hurting for my Grandpa and for my family. I feel alone out here, and I just want to be so badly right now with my Grandma, mom, dad, sister, and aunt and family. It kills me to be thousands of miles away…

My world kind of feels just shaken.

Please be in prayer for my Grandpa Ralph, my Grandma Ara, My mom, my Aunt Lorri, and everyone else in my family. They are dealing with a lot of sadness and stress right now. Pray for the salvation of my family members who do not know Christ during this time.